Different journey

So. I haven’t said anything about this in my blog, I kinda kept it off of here for awhile. But, I moved in with my mom at the end of the summer before school started. It’s been a different journey. There’s been good things and bad things that happened since moving. New experiences. Meeting new people. The biggest thing for me was starting at a new school in a new county. I knew no body that goes to my school. I had to literally start all over again. I didn’t know how to feel about it. I was nervous, excited, ANXIOUS. I have really bad anxiety. Like, I shake. I hate it. I’m a people person, I like meeting new people, to an extent. The move wasn’t rough. Like it was easy to move things because all I had to carry was the bags of my clothes and things I needed, stuff like that. When school started, it was rough. It took me like 2-3 weeks to finally have all the friends I have now there. Like, I’m used to people coming to me and talking, that didn’t really happen. 9 times out of 10, I was the one who started the conversation first, and then it went from there. It’s been alright so far I guess. The first few weeks of school, I had really good grades, but then near the end, I started failing ): I got stressed again and couldn’t concentrate on my work. But then I realized report cards were coming out in like a week, so I rushed so hard to get my grades up, and I did 🙂 I finished with like a 3.2 GPA. I could do better, but I brought my 1.2 GPA up. Yikes I know. This quarter, I started thinking about what I want to do when I finish high school. What carrier I want to pursue in. I love kids, I LOVE babies. I always have, the first “jobs” that I’ve ever had was being a babysitter. I thought I was a pretty good one 🙂 So then I thought, a neonatal nurse. BOOM. They work with babies. Birth babies, ect. I thought it was perfect. So now I’m trying to do my best in school so I can work my way up to being a neonatal nurse. But.. progress reports are coming out next week, and I’m not too happy with my grades /: I got like 4 D’s and the rest are A’s or C’s. Pretty disappointed in myself, but I am trying so hard )): And I’ll keep trying. But, I’ve been thinking a lot, like besides what I want to do with my life when I’m older. Like, I think about my dad a lot ): I know he’s been going through some things, and I know he has some struggles ): I miss him a lot. I see him every other weekend, and it feels so weird and different. My sister and I stayed with him this weekend. And I had a lot of fun. We looked at houses. Drove around. Watched movies. Spent quality time together. You know, the usual a daughter and dad should do😊but, another thing that’s been bothering me, is my sisters attitude. Like I feel like she’s hanging out with the wrong people /: her VOICE is changing whenever she talks. Like when she talks on the phone with her friends, she talks with this Spanish accent or something, and it’s So AnNoYiNg and it makes me look at her differently if I’m being honest /: she treats me like crap mostly too. When you call her out on something that she did wrong or the way she’s talking to you, she’ll get hella defensive and start yelling and giving you an even bigger attitude. I don’t care if people say “It’s the teenager stage”, I don’t EVER remember acting THAT bad at her age. I’m 16 now, and I’ve grown up some. Matured more. Sure I can act immature at times, but I think I mentioned this before in my blog, and I’ll say it again.. “I know when the right time is to be mature”. I know how to talk to people. But, I know when I do get annoyed, I can have a really bad attitude and talk to everyone around me terribly, and that’s my fault. But I’ve been trying to work on it. But my sister has an attitude so much, that she doesn’t even know she has one, haha. She’ll end up growing up one day too. And even though she treats me terribly, I’ll still be by her side trying to guide her into the right paths. I’m her sister, that’s what I’m here for.  Anywaysss, sorry about this long rant, but that’s what this blog is for, right?? I hope all of you ladies and gentlemen that read my blog (if you even read this far or read at all) have a good day!!