My dad keeps telling me that I have an attitude. I’m not dumb, I know I have an attitude. But, you know it’s really hard for me to control my feelings right now.  I don’t talk to people at school, I don’t talk that much anymore in general. I get really mad at school because the teachers always come up to me and say “this isn’t the girl I know” and the sad thing is, is that it’s true. This isn’t the girl I know either. I’m so confused right now on why this had to be me. “Things happen for a reason” Well, whats this reason? To tear the family apart? To make us depressed? To make us feel like we are dying? Because there is nothing good coming out of this!  It is so sad to think about what society we live in today. It’s so sad to think about what will/could happen next. When people ask me if I’m okay, I will say “yes” and fake a smile, but, I wish I could actually say that I’m alright. No kid should ever have to go through this or grow up without parents. We need our parents to teach us from right or wrong, that’s how we grow up. We live and we learn.  But, I really don’t know what my life lesson on this is. I do know a lot of things that it’s doing to me. It’s killing me, making me cry 24/7, making me depressed, making me mad, making me want to punch things all the time, and making me realize this isn’t a nightmare… 🙁