Relationships

So, I just got out of a relationship last night. No I’m not that one teen that was in a relationship for two months, then is heart broken over the break up, and then finds someone else. I was with this person for a year and almost 8 months. I spent a lot of time with him, trying to give him my all, trying to make him as happy as I possibly could. I messed up a few things in the relationship. I lied about things I shouldn’t have lied about. But, I’m “man” enough to admit that some of the things that happened in the relationship was MY fault. Now put all this aside. I was mentally abused. Got called names a girlfriend should never hear come out of her boyfriends mouth. Should never hear it from someone that “loves you”. I kept all of this shit to myself. I never said anything to my parents, or my friends. Because we had gotten into an argument before about how stuff that happens in OUR relationship is no one else’s business. So whenever something happened, I’d hold it in, and bottle it up. Until I was up on school nights at 4 AM, sitting in the bathroom crying and holding my stomach because I couldn’t breathe. There’s a LOT of things that happened in our relationship, but I’m not going to get into all of it. But if you are a teen, about my age, younger or older, and you’re reading this, and you’re in a mentally abusive relationship, please leave. Don’t sit there and tell yourself “it will get better.” Because it will not, it will get worse as time goes on, and then you’ll be scared to leave, and you’ll feel stuck not knowing what to do. And all your friends that give you advice because you’re stuck, you won’t listen to a word they’re saying. And you’ll stay because you still believe it’ll get “better”. I can tell you, it’s not easy at all getting out of a relationship with someone you really do love. But I promise it’s better leaving, than staying in a relationship with someone who abuses you. You CAN love someone so much, that you don’t even realize they’re hurting you. Anyways, I can’t really think of anything else to say.  I’ve just had a lot on my mind and I just wanted to write about it and get it off my shoulders.